Wednesday, December 28, 2011

The focus should be the sacrifice of Christ and how we as the church must model ourselves after his example, doing nothing but building others up. Giving until we are dry. NO MORE LUXURY. All you need is a building to gather in, one bible, songbooks, and voices to sing and speak. Boost your numbers by changing your communities, giving to the people who need it, housing the homeless, feeding the hungry. That’s what the church is supposed to be about.

I don’t want to simply reblog something. I’d like to live it. Spencer (via thelisabanana)

Sunday, December 25, 2011

Oh yes...

I do need the Bible, oh so badly. To remember what I am called to, to know what I came from, to hold to the only thing that’ll last: God’s word.

Thursday, December 22, 2011

"We please Him most, not by frantically trying to make ourselves good, but by throwing ourselves into His arms with all our imperfections and believing that He understands everything — and loves us still." -AW Tozer

Saturday, December 17, 2011

Substitution

"For the Lord disciplines the one he loves, and chastises every son whom he receives. For the Lord disciplines the one he loves, and chastises every son whom he receives.” Hebrews 12:6


I was thinking of this verse, and was applying it to sin and retribution. But then I realized that Jesus has taken all my sins upon himself. The Lord disciplines us, but his wrath is forever spared, having been taken by Jesus. Committing a sin is so much more bitter in light of the one who loves us, but our lives are swept away by the sweetness of assurance we have in God’s steadfast love.

Friday, December 2, 2011

What we tend to win people with is what we tend to win people to.

Bob Kauflin

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Actually applying the Bible hardly happens.

I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.


(Galatians 2:20 ESV)

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Pray that I love

and out of that love that I may encourage my brothers around me.

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

The Problem with Fun

It is not mentioned in the Bible. If I am to be in complete love with my God, then the result is living for Jesus.That doesn’t just mean I start living my life with Biblical principles, but living with my purpose of glorifying God and furthering the kingdom. Where does fun fit in with that? Where does reading a non-edifying fiction book fall into that?


But that doesn’t sit right with me, but I don’t know if that is simply my sinful flesh that is not satisfied with knowing God and loving Him. I know that among many ‘worldly’ things, they are to be used to further community, with the end of furthering the Gospel. I can play video games to build relationships. But where does me using hours every week to read/play with no purpose but to pass the time?


Hypothetically, if you were among some believers who you already were close friends with, would there be anything of more importance than growing together in the Word and interceding for others in prayer? Where does the Bible speak about leisure or fun? I’ll tell you: nowhere.


I look to the lives of Apostle Paul, Jonathan Edwards, and others, whose lives were characterized by knowing God, writing about God, and telling everybody how to get to God. On the Sabbath, definitely use that time to bring your family together (all for the end of raising Christ-loving kids), but you could then see why Paul would wish that others were not married, so they could be ministering 24/7!! What is fun, and are we to have anything to do with it? This is my quest for the next week to figure this out, so that I can run towards my goal with clarity of vision.

Saturday, October 1, 2011

A delightfully miserable day

It truly was miserable. I did not like yesterday. It wasn’t some difficult thing that I had to face, but I simply felt awful. And it was only because I had watched a fair amount of TV shows. Like maybe 2 or 3 hours of TV, some on Hulu, some on Netflix. It just wasn’t satisfying in the least, and it did not make me feel well. I simply did it out of habit. Due to this, I will be taking Community off of my Hulu subscriptions, not because the show has gotten any worse, but, in a way, my tastes have changed. I think this is partially due to the over consumption of TV which led to wasted time, and secondly, wasting time is becoming less palatable to my soul. I really want to use my time to glorify God, so my boredom was not satisfied by watching TV. It felt sickening, and so I felt miserable, all because I wasted time watching worthless TV for a couple of hours. And so, I delight in that my desires are being reshaped. That what once might have been a battle to not waste my time, is now simply a battle against habit (which is actually a very strong pull) and not so much against desire. I will go “to God my exceeding joy.” Disclaimer: I am far from using my time well, but this is just a small step for which I praise the Lord.

Friday, September 30, 2011

The Lighted Carriage and the Starlit Night

the17club:




I’m pages away from finishing a marvelous book by John Piper entitled, “Desiring God” and a few nights ago I stumbled across something tucked away in one of the book’s appendices that I haven’t been able to stop thinking about.


First, a bit of preface.


Without delving too deep, Piper defines what he calls Christian Hedonism as the way by which “God is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in Him,” furthering the idea that man’s chief end is to glorify God. He goes on to explain the following:


We all make a god out of what we take the most pleasure in. Christian Hedonists want to make God their God by seeking after the greatest pleasure — pleasure in him.


By Christian Hedonism, we do not mean that our happiness is the highest good. We mean that pursuing the highest good will always result in our greatest happiness in the end. We should pursue this happiness, and pursue it with all our might. The desire to be happy is a proper motive for every good deed, and if you abandon the pursuit of your own joy you cannot love man or please God.


The Difference Between Worldly and Christian Hedonism:


Some people are inclined to believe that Christians are supposed to seek God’s will as opposed to pursuing their own pleasure. But what makes Biblical morality different than worldly hedonism is not that Biblical morality is disinterested and duty-driven, but that it is interested in vastly greater and purer things. Christian Hedonism is Biblical morality because it recognizes that obeying God is the only route to final and lasting happiness. Here are some examples of this from the Bible:


Luke 6:35 says, “Love your enemies, and do good, and lend, expecting nothing in return; and your reward will be great.” It is clear when Jesus says “expect nothing in return” that we should not be motivated by worldly aggrandizement, but we are given strength to suffer loss by the promise of a future reward.


Again, in Luke 14:12-14: “When you give a dinner or a banquet, do not invite your friends or your brothers or your kinsmen or rich neighbors, lest they also invite you in return, and you be repaid. But when you give a feast, invite the poor… and you will be blessed, because they cannot repay you. You will be repaid at the resurrection of the just.” That is, don’t do good deeds for worldly advantage; rather, do them for spiritual, heavenly benefits.


-John Piper


Beyond that, I’ll let you read the book for yourself and draw your own conclusions if you find yourself searching for deeper meaning. The subject of this blog entry is not about Christian Hedonism directly, but rather about a quote within “Desiring God” that I found ASTOUNDING and haven’t been able to get out of my mind since.


Piper writes:


In “The Simple Life”, Vernard Eller delights himself in some of the great parables of SØren Kierkegaard. One of his favorites is the parable of the lighted carriage and the starlit night. We could also call it the crisis of Christian Hedonism. It goes like this:


“When the prosperous man on a dark but starlit night drives comfortably in his carriage and has the lanterns lighted, aye, then he is safe, he fears no difficulty, he carries his light with him, and it is not dark close around him. But precisely because he has the lanterns lighted, and has a strong light close to him, precisely for this reason, he cannot see the stars. For his lights obscure the stars, which the poor peasant, driving without lights, can see gloriously in the dark but starry night. So those deceived ones live in the temporal existence: either, occupied with the necessities of life, they are too busy to avail themselves of the view, or in their prosperity and good days they have, as it were, lanterns lighted, and close about them everything is so satisfactory, so pleasant, so comfortable — but the view is lacking, the prospect, the view of the stars.”


This parable BLEW MY MIND. What a potent dose of perspective these words are! And furthermore, which man am I? Am I MISSING OUT completely on the beauty that lies around me because I choose to live in a temporal existence occupied with the pleasures/necessities of life versus an awareness and enjoyment of God?


Piper summarizes:


Eller comments, “Clearly, ‘the view of the stars’ here intends one’s awareness and enjoyment of God.” The rich and busy who surround themselves with the carriage lights of temporal comfort, or the busy who cover themselves with troublesome care, cut themselves off from what Kierkegaard calls “the absolute joy”:


What indescribable joy! — joy over God the Almighty… for this is the absolute joy, to adore the almighty power with which God the Almighty bears all thy care and sorrow as easily as nothing.


Wow.


If you really mull this over, it’ll have you tossing and turning in no time — and the more you think about it, the more profound it becomes.


I’m a thinker, not a talker. Mind pictures, exemplums and allegories hit home. This one was a grand slam.


I’m unbelievably excited about this.



Thank you, Adam Young.



I need to continue on to the appendices! How often do I need to be reminded that my absolute joy can only be found in God alone.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

I was just about to post just a title called, “I need to love more,” but then my autofill thing showed that I had already done that previously, which means I should maybe start praying about it, instead of just posting it randomly on tumblr.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

There is nothing better than having friends visit and going to a DG conference together.

Friday, September 23, 2011

The biggest question people need to ask is whether or not there is a God who created the world.

From there, there are 2 possible implications.


If yes, then the implication is that you better find out what kind of God created this world. Did he create the world for some odd enjoyment of chaos, or does he have a glorious plan? Who is this God, and what does he want of us?


If not, then the implication is that life is simply without meaning. There is no implicit right or wrong. Even the laws of the universe are simply by chance, and contain no value other than or dependency on them. Everything is a product of chance and the existence of the universe defies our own laws of causation, that something must come from something, when in fact somehow it just was from nothing(?). Nothing has meaning or makes sense without God.

Monday, September 19, 2011

Betrayed?

Having a teammate leave the intramural volleyball team because it wasn’t competitive enough. Do I blame him for wanting a really good team? We have a team of people with average talent, and some less than average. They lack experience. But I want to just have fun. Doesn’t mean I don’t want to win, but that isn’t what makes or breaks my enjoyment. Can I blame him for wanting to be intense? At my family reunion we had games when the kids couldn’t play because we wanted it to be more competitive, is this similar? I also see it as a his problem of not being able to associate with people who are ‘below’ him, and needing things to meet his expectations. I would love to be on an intense team, a team that would be challenging me to be better, not where I am leading. But that is not my first priority. I don’t get frustrated with people who haven’t had that experience; it is called grace; it is called learning. I feel with younger kids, there is a difference, because they just haven’t grown up. Is choosing a winning team done to glorify God, or glorify oneself, or just have more fun? I feel betrayed. I cannot believe that there is no commitment to the team. His own joy is more important than the other people. Apparently, he has been forced to do that his whole life, now he just wants to have fun.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Too busy to do life

But not to busy to eat and drink in the Word of God. Praise the Lord!

Monday, September 5, 2011

Amen!

Q: What is the Corporate Purpose of Chick-fil-A, Inc.?
A: To glorify God by being a faithful steward of all that is entrusted to us. To have a positive influence on all who come in contact with Chick-fil-A.
(http://www.chick-fil-a.com/FAQ
/#?q=Corporate Purpose)





mikeclevenger:



 ”Is he-quite safe?  I shall feel rather nervous about meeting a lion.”  Safe?” said Mr Beaver, “Who said anything about safe?  ’Course he isn’t safe. But he’s good. He’s the King, I tell you.”


Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Lesson from the Shrewd Manager

"…while Christians often suffer opportunities of doing good to pass unimproved; are less steady, firm, and anxious about eternal things, and thus show less wisdom. Alas! this is too true; and we cannot but reflect here how different the world would be if all Christians were as anxious, and diligent, and prudent in religious matters as others are in worldly things.”

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

Friday, August 5, 2011

"Make straight paths for your feet" (Hebrews 12:13a)

So practical and important. Seek wisdom and plan to put yourself in only situations that do not lead you into temptation, but rather away from stumbling, away from extremes. The straight and narrow is the path that we are not only supposed to follow, but the path we are to create. It isn’t just following rules, but being wise, intentional, prayerful. Knowing what can tempt us, or cause us to lose focus of what is important, namely our walk with God and our relationships with our neighbors. All this can only be done by the grace of God and through the power of the Holy Spirit. All glory to God.


I wrote the above as I was waiting for my flight back to MN. I utterly failed at doing this this summer. This year is like a new beginning, but it really isn’t. I grew a lot last year, went downhill this summer, and am now turning my path straight. Every day is new, but we always bring with us a past. Some mistakes we try to forget, and the rest we learn from. Ideally I wish I could take the lesson, and forget the mistake, but the nice thing is that I don’t have to forget the mistake for it to go away. I am cleansed by the blood of Christ, made clean again. I can only continue on through His grace and mercy. So last year at NWC I grew because I was in an awesome environment. This year the same will surely happen all according to God’s plan, but additionally I will purposefully seek to abide in Christ daily through reading and prayer, so that even when a storm brews and I’m not in my bubble, I will still have God as my fortress.


This is my plan so that my paths will be straight. There will be struggles that I cannot account for ahead of time, but God is in control, so I need not worry. I am not at all worthy for these positions of leadership that I have this year, but I was never worthy of anything to begin with. It is due only to God’s love that I am saved, and it is His will that I seek, His gift of letting me share in His ministry. Thank you Lord for loving me.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Just because we are no longer under the law, doesn't mean we should ignore it.

Deuteronomy 6:5-9 “You shall love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your might. 6And these words that I command you today shall be on your heart. 7 You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall talk of them when you sit in your house, and when you walk by the way, and when you lie down, and when you rise. 8 You shall bind them as a sign on your hand, and they shall be as frontlets between your eyes.9 You shall write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates.”

Repent and be heard!

God will not listen to prayers if we hold up sin. (Psalm 66:18)



How many Christians don’t know this, not necessarily this verse, but the principal that we need to be fleeing from sin, repenting and turning to God? A heart that cherishes sin will not be in attune with God. 

Monday, August 1, 2011

"The joy of the Lord is your strength"

(Nehemiah 8:10) And without out it I am utterly weak.








































missflower:



the17club:



Genius. And where were these during prophecy class???



TRUE STORY. Hebrew class is always better with visuals. 



Totally awesome. Love the Prophets

Friday, July 29, 2011

The Beat Psalms: The Meaningful Man

Link: The Beat Psalms: The Meaningful Man

corycopeland:



What does it take to be a man? Is it being tall in stature? Maybe possessing a muscular might? How about having a bushy beard, smelling of pine and wearing a worn out flannel shirt? Do these things make a man? I ask because through the years, our definition has seemed to change. No longer is a man…


Tuesday, July 19, 2011

The Battle of the American Christian

1 John 2


 15 Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. 16For all that is in the world— the desires of the flesh and the desires of the eyes and pride in possessions—is not from the Father but is from the world. 17And the world is passing away along with its desires, but whoever does the will of God abides forever.


Don’t sugarcoat your feelings. Don’t say one thing and live another. Honestly evaluate your life. What do you love? If you love God, you simply don’t love other things. What is most precious? What is your treasure? Does my life show this?

I just don't know

Friday, July 8, 2011

John 8:28 (ISV)

So Jesus told them, “When you have lifted up the Son of Man, then you will know that I AM, and that I do nothing on my own authority. Instead, I speak only what the Father has taught me.”


Every other version adds in a “he” or something equivalent after “I am”, but “he” is no where to be found in the Greek. They do get it right in 8:58, and I know I’m no scholar, but I do think the ISV, a version I know little about, has it right in capitalizing it completely as it is the name of God.

The Fight of the Christian Hedonist

Daily this world brings things before your eyes and tells you, “This will make you happier,” and every moment we need to put our eyes skyward remembering that our absolute, everlasting, invincible joy is found in God alone. The things of this world may bring instant happy distractions, but the only thing that will last is the joy in our salvation. So in all things give glory to the Father with praise and thanksgiving, but seek God first and foremost. Pray earnestly for a heart that loves him above all things.

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Oh man!

The Cape and No Ordinary Family got cancelled. Not only are they action-ish, they both weren’t saturated in this culture’s poor values and heightened sexuality. Too bad.


But all the better, more reason for me to not watch TV.

Tuesday, July 5, 2011



War! A sermon jam of John Piper’s sermon on Romans 8:10-17.

So utterly helpless.

I cannot desire or love God on my own. It has to start with a regeneration from God made possible through Christ’s death. I must pray much much much more often for God to awaken my heart to love him more and more and more, so that I can be more and more satisfied in Him and Him alone.

(Nehemiah 8:10) "The joy of the Lord is your strength."

I Will Not Be Shaken

Saturday, July 2, 2011

The American church, myself included, need to “put our faces in the carpet and asked for the humble heart of Jesus to wreck our pride.” Demonstrations of God’s power and spirit will only come through a complete relying on God, relinquishing our abilities to His will.

Friday, July 1, 2011

"If we find God boring, we are like five-year-olds who find sex boring. The problem is not with sex."

From John Piper. I enjoyed receiving this tweet on my phone. I went to link to it for this and noticed that people on twitter were replying with comments such as, “Eww… pervy”, “EXCUSE ME?”, and other critiques. First of all, just because it says “sex” doesn’t make it innapropriate, and second of all, the point is that a 5 year old has not had sex and thus knows nothing of its good pleasures, like those who find God boring.

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

The pursuit of holiness without the pursuit of God is not only unbearable, but impossible.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Somebody I agree with almost completely...

I’ve just listened to Paul Washer a bit, and am in the middle of his dating sermon. He definitely leans towards Biblical courtship and despises today’s recreational dating, and the one thing that I have difficulty swallowing is the rule to not be alone with a girl. He seems to assume that their is always some risk when being alone with the opposite gender (outside of family). He uses the example that people would outcast if he was found alone with a women baking cookies (Paul Washer is an over 40 year old pastor). Would that be the same situation if he wasn’t married? Is it different because I know I have no temptation when hanging out with a female friend and also have no other girl that I’m committed to? And let’s say I did. Let’s say I have a girlfriend in Minnesota, would I then be out of place being alone with a girl because it could appear as a scandal to some people? (This is all assuming there is no temptation and no reason to believe something will happen) Ahh… but he clarifies: ‘If you are alone with a girl that you are attracted to enough time, you will fall.’ So know your limits, and the limit is temptation.

"If your clothing is a frame for your face, it is of God."

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Monday, June 20, 2011

I found it difficult to pray intently, or at all, while on my back.

Friday, June 17, 2011

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Arg

I was just going through my Google Reader and followed up on a friend who went on a missions trip. He was writing on the change that is to come from that, and I was curious as to what changes aside from a ‘broadened mind’ were to come from that. But then I realized that I need to be taking a similar inventory. I have been gone from home for quite some time, and although I’m not saying Northwestern College is comparable to a crazy missions trip, God can change people anywhere. So I need to be reflecting, reflecting so I do not forget the things that have become so important, reflecting to not lose the change in thought and life that redirect me to God. How can I be so impotent that I fall back into the same habits, the same thoughts, the same un-awakened life that I had before?! I need to be tearing through this, not letting myself settle into a useless heap of crap. Honestly, I have let most of the change fade away. I wasn’t unaware. I’m not helpless. I am just “far to easily pleased.” Me being aware makes me feel all the worse. I’m not deserved of being able to go back to God. But what makes me think that I ever deserved to come to God. Grace, and only grace. I don’t believe that I do good things to make myself righteous, and that I do them because I want to please God. So knowing that I will always do something that is displeasing, and that I need daily grace, I should be brought to… to something. Wanting to seek righteousness isn’t bad, but I can’t forget that I need God’s grace everyday, and that he just lets it flow because he loves so much. And how can knowing this bring anybody to anything aside from a desire to just seek God?! What is wrong with me?



(insert omitted prayer, because this prayer is just a plea before my Lord)

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

I'm not a huge fan of people who just follow you in the hopes that you'll follow them.

Have Tumblr and Twitter just been reduced to popularity contests?


But the people who do that won’t ever read this, because they never read the people they follow. So if you don’t read this and are following me…

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

A wonderful morning catching up with Mia

It is great having friends who share a passionate fundamental view of the Bible.

Monday, June 6, 2011

A resolution to glorify God in all things.

 1 Corinthians 10:31


"So, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God."\



The most important aspect in how I am going to work at this is by creating a schedule. Yes, I am going to schedule my life during the summer. Now a scheduled life doesn’t automatically mean a God glorifying life, and not have a schedule doesn’t mean you aren’t glorifying God, but personally, when days on end have nothing concrete going on, and I have no plan, my sinful, lazy flesh takes control. I want to be spirit driven, so I’m going to have a plan, starting Wednesday. Tuesday I’m not starting my little schedule because I’ll be up late tonight and then sleep much of the day away.


The tough question is: How do all things to (or for) the glory of God? Well, first I’m going to pray a lot. I want my life to be spirit filled so that I will be more likely to just automatically follow in God’s plan. Also, I should be doing all things in that I can honestly and whole-heartedly being praising and thanking God. (But not as an incessant duty.) I don’t think I am being crazy (or at least too crazy) when I wonder how I can do things like playing video games to the glory of God. Am I wrong to just say that as long as I’m thanking God for the game, I’m okay? Well currently, I don’t feel that that alone would lead to a God fearing life, and so I want to have the majority of my game time be for social action that puts time into relationships. Ah, and having friendships that actually bring glory to God is an entire different topic. Are all the friendships (or even acquaintanceships) glorifying God? And how does such a thing even happen?


Even I’m led to think that I might just be over analyzing things, but when it comes to matters of the spirit, it must be thought on, so long as our thinking doesn’t pull us away from God or our time with God.


Got a little off topic there. The point is, I want to do a U-turn and use all this extra summer time to not only relax, but to glorify God and grow closer to Him. Summer Mindset is a thought coming from Colossians 3:2. The effects of what happens when the wrong mindset occurs has definitely happened to me already. It is worth a read.

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Shameless Advertising, because I would get $

If you buy something from Gilt after making an account from me, I get free store credit. So if you find something cool, doesn’t matter how small, it would be AWESOME!! 


Membership is free, and they have a wide variety of stuff. If you want, you can consider buying something from here (after making a membership through this link) as my birthday present!! It is a win-win!! Plus, I need clothes that fit me.


http://www.gilt.com/invite/dfingold

What could be the purpose of this?

I really really really hope I don’t lose the scholarship because I didn’t send the acceptance form in on time. OF COURSE I WANT IT!! WHY WOULD I DENY A SCHOLARSHIP!?!

What could be the purpose of this?

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

A change of habit does not mean a change of heart.

Jenny Frank

The surest way of spoiling a pleasure is to start examining your satisfaction” -C.S. Lewis


I wonder if this is what I’ve done. To think that I am able to understand upon examination would a prideful thing indeed.

Saturday, May 28, 2011

The Creation of the World

That is the first subtitle in the Bible. I didn’t even get through the first verse before I was in shock. I am reading about the creation of this world! How blessed are we to have God’s word describe the beginning of the entire universe!?!? Even if you take it as largely figurative, it is still awesome. That is how I want to approach the Bible every time I read it — with awe. God loves us enough that he puts TRUTH down in written form so we can abide in it. Praise the Lord!

Karma doesn't exist.

http://www.desiringgod.org/resource-library/sermons/why-was-this-child-born-blind


This sermon isn’t by any means working towards that point, but as a Christian, we cannot believe in karma or the like, and Jesus affirms that.


… suffering can only have ultimate meaning in relation to God. … [For} our suffering to have ultimate meaning, God must be supremely valuable to us. More valuable than health and life. Many things in the Bible make no sense until God becomes your supreme value.”

Too much time spent updating online junk

My life is updated pictorially. Q: And why did I feel the need to create a Twitter? A: To get text messages from John Piper.


But God uses it for his glory!



But, as it is written,
“What no eye has seen, nor ear heard,
nor the heart of man imagined,
what God has prepared for those who love him”


-1 Corinthians 2:9


Wednesday, May 25, 2011

"This is the most painful thing in the world: to see someone destroy their own life. You can’t save someone from themselves. They need to repent and walk with Jesus for themselves. But some of us are just too cowardly. We don’t like conflict. We don’t want our friends to not like us, and so we don’t say anything. That’s a sin. That’s a sin of pride and cowardice." -Driscoll


We must help our Christian brothers/sisters in Christ in humility, and if they don’t repent, we will be sorrowful, but it is not in our hands, yet we cannot do nothing. I need to work on humility.

Do we really have ADD?

Our generation is known to not be able to focus. And I know there are divisions. There are the more intellectual readers, who like to sit and think, and then a large chunk of not sitting and needing flash and bang. Mark Driscoll is a pastor of a church (a big church) that is largely for male singles from 18 to 34 (or somewhere around there) and he has some of the longest sermons I have heard. Either he only gets all the people who like to sit and think, or he is generally blessed with being a good orator and we need to stop dumbing down our generation to only being able to handle 5 minutes at a time.

Mark Driscoll is awesome

And if you’re a guy here who’s saying, “Are you talking about me?” Yes. You are the idiot of which I speak. And repent, and don’t be an idiot, …” -Mark Driscoll


I love how he just unashamedly calls people idiots, but he does it so they can move to correction.

My new favorite punctuation‽

The Interrobang Alt+8253


It doesn’t work on Tumblr for some reason, but I could copy it over.

Isaiah was called to preach to those who would not listen.

What if we were called to the same thing?



Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Right now I am just confused. Maybe if I wait, things will just clear themselves up.

Psalm 111:10

The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom; all those who practice it have a good understanding. His praise endures forever!


If I seek the fear of the Lord, I must “practice it”? That seems to be actually more literal than the NASB which substitute that phrase for “obey his commandments.” I think that would be the natural conclusion of how to practice it, for even if I don’t feel the fear of the Lord, I can kinda imagine how I would act if I did have a good understanding. So if I am to have a good understanding, I just have to obey his commandments in recognition of who He is. Now there are entire books written on who He is (though if looking for a good one, I suggest the source: the Bible), but I won’t go into that. Now I’m not suggesting legalism, but that I need to practice fearing the Lord, all the time.

Monday, May 23, 2011

Sunday, May 22, 2011

The Bible is not a pep talk. It is good news.

http://theresurgence.com/2011/03/31/transform-your-bible-reading

Thanksgivings, Prayers, and Benedictions

In my seeking of how to pray for and encourage my brothers and sisters in Christ (Note, many great lessons about prayer are also found in the Psalms, these are just a few selection from the letters of Paul and John):


Philippians 1


3 I thank my God in all my remembrance of you, 4 always in every prayer of mine for you all making my prayer with joy, 5 because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now. […] 9 And it is my prayer that your love may abound more and more, with knowledge and all discernment, 10 so that you may approve what is excellent, and so be pure and blameless for the day of Christ, 11 filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ, to the glory and praise of God.


  • I kept verses 3-5 in there because of the importance of thanking God for having fellow believers who are also pursuing Christ and spreading the gospel. And if we don’t, then you need to start praying for your friends. Verse 9 is so important! Love is so crucial, so so crucial. I hope we never forget that, but what we need to also seek is knowledge and discernment. And why? so that we may be pure for Christ and to be filled with fruit (including: love, joy, peace…, and also: good deeds and the like) that only comes from Christ. But it cannot be forgotten that this is all for God’s glory. “The ultimate end of man is to glorify God”

Colossians 4


2 Continue steadfastly in prayer, being watchful in it with thanksgiving. 3 At the same time, pray also for us, that God may open to us a door for the word, to declare the mystery of Christ, on account of which I am in prison— 4 that I may make it clear, which is how I ought to speak.


  • We are to pray steadfastly, all the time. Not just for meals where we say thanks, but to prayer continually for everything (In addition, 1 Thes 3:10 talks about praying night and day). I should be praying, and asking others to pray, that God opens doors for the spreading of the gospel, and that I be speaking clearly so that people understand.

1 Thesallonians 5 - Benediction 


23 Now may the God of peace himself sanctify you completely, and may your whole spirit and soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. 24 He who calls you is faithful; he will surely do it.


  • Let’s continue to pray that God sanctifies us, so we can work towards being pure for Christ. Encourage each other to be mindful of this pursuit of purity and integrity.

Philemon


 6 and I pray that the sharing of your faith may become effective for the full knowledge of every good thing that is in us for the sake of Christ.


  • Again, praying that our words are effective so that people are brought to Christ.

3 John


2 Beloved, I pray that all may go well with you and that you may be in good health, as it goes well with your soul. 3 For I rejoiced greatly when the brothers came and testified to your truth, as indeed you are walking in the truth. 4 I have no greater joy than to hear that my children are walking in the truth.


  • We need to still be concerned about the health and wellbeing of others (as can be summed up in the wishing of “Shalom”), but with given respect to the importance of our soul’s health, that is measured by our walk in the truth.

I am good at friendships, but suck at relationships.

I think. The problem is I don’t even know. Which is why I am terrible.

Friday, May 20, 2011

37 x 13 x 7 = Judgment, tomorrow. Who would've thought!?

This is a great injury to the truth.


Source: http://www.the-latter-rain.com/other-time-clues.html (Don’t bother looking at the website, it’s all trash, I just thought I should cite the post)

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Starting to miss being constantly in a Christ-centered environment

I think I need this little taste of the real world

Thanks God

for the lesson in humility. I need to be reminded that just because I have things more set in my head, (like how the ESV Bible is boss) doesn’t make me absolutely right and in any way superior. 

Monday, May 16, 2011

Wisdom from the Proverbs

(ESV) 15:33 The fear of the Lord is instruction in wisdom, and humility comes before honor. 


16:1 The plans of the heart belong to man, but the answer of the tongue is from the Lord. … 3Commit your work to the Lord, and your plans will be established. … 9The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.


What I get from this:


God is sovereign. Hallelujah! The Lord God almighty establishes my steps, even when I am all screwy. I want to know what to do this summer. I want to know how I can serve God and spread his glory and work for his Kingdom, so fearing God is instruction in wisdom. I need to fear God more. And it is no accident that 33b links humility with the fear of the Lord. True humility only comes from truly seeing who He is, which naturally leads to fear (and also to worship).


In 16:1 and 9, I want to say that it is just saying that man can make his plan, but the Lord has the final say since he has absolute sovereignty. In the NLT, 16:1 says, “We can gather our thoughts, but the LORD gives the right answer.” Although that isn’t incorrect, the more literal translations (ESV and NASB) use the word “belong”, which seems to say that the plans are supposed to be there. I want to work for God this summer, to bring him glory and work for his kingdom, but I always doubt my plans and ask God what he wants. But here it says that these plans belong. Now when I went to look at the original Hebrew, it appears that there may not actually be a verb there, so I don’t want to stress it too much, but if I make my plans, pray about them, willingly desire God to take my plans and have the final say, then I will be doing right. Most importantly verse 3, if I commit my work to the Lord, my plans will be established. So right there these same plans will be established by God if I just fully commit my work to the Lord. And I have no problem with that. Nothing could bring me greater joy that having my work be for the Lord!

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Where did the last 3 hours go??

oh video games

Bye bye following the Bible

In response to the new decision listed at http://www.pcusa.org/news/2011/5/11/pcusa-relaxes-constitutional-prohibition-gay-and-l/


(Note, not all church’s that are Presbyterian are in accord with this decision or are even part of Presbyterian Church USA)


So earlier, they required church leaders (deacons, elders, etc) to have “fidelity within the covenant of marriage between a man and a woman or chastity in singleness.” That phrase has now been replaced with having “submission to the Lordship of Jesus Christ.” As listed in their other resources, now “a person in a same‐gender relationship can be considered for ordination as deacon, elder, or Minister of the Word and Sacrament.” Previously, “there was never a prohibition against a person being ordained based on sexual orientation, as long as that person was celibate”. 


Everything about this is saddening. Their previous position wasn’t quite biblical, but now they are fleeing even further. Apparently submitting to the Lordship of Jesus Christ doesn’t include submitting to the Word of God. In fact, the majority that has made this change occur is submitting to this society, and not submitting to God.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

It is so apparent everywhere!

Thank you God for bringing this understanding into my heart. I don’t know how I never got it before. I just want everyone else to get it too!!

Thursday, May 12, 2011

Wow, I have way too much stuff at college.

I need to get a wardrobe like Arthur, where its all the same and I have like 7 sets

Sunday, May 1, 2011

Hmm... español

"No era, ni soy, ni seré perfecto, pero Dios está en mi vida, me ayuda cada día, incluso cuando yo no lo veo."


The ending line in my testimonio. I think I might start blogging in Spanish. I don’t know whether I should solely blog in Spanish, or translate it (without a translator). Qué debo hacer…

God is good

I am at peace with my decision. Praise the Lord.


"For God alone my soul waits in silence;


from him comes my salvation.


He only is my rock and my salvation,


my fortress; I shall not be greatly shaken.”


-Psalm 62:1-2

My heart is broken either way.

Whether it is working at Little Eden or going back home, whichever I think on my heart yearns for that, and so I will be content wherever I am at. I could go to Little Eden, be surrounded by God loving and God searching people, be an witness to my faith there and be a servant the whole summer, or I could go home and be a witness there among an equally mixed crowd, also be a servant (though I would have to seek out the opportunities), and do whatever God needs me to do. I really don’t know. I pray that as time goes on as I prepare to leave college that the Lord gives me an assurance that isn’t of my own. That in this decision I can just bring praise and glory to the Lord. That in the end, all that matters is that I follow God. I am torn, but Jesus is faithful and is my solid rock even when I am a mess.

I don't know!!!

Lord, help me!! I need you. I don’t know where I should be this summer, and yet, I am deciding right now. I don’t want to have regrets.


But Lord, in you I am FREE!! Free to desire you, be satisfied in you, be used by you, and to take these opportunities you set before me. I am free from regrets, Lord, for how can I be sorry when I am pursuing you. Lord, I want to desire you, and in that never regret my decisions. 


All I know is that I have you.

"Daily kill the idea that Christianity is a religion"

Saturday, April 30, 2011

When I have less stuff to do, I am so much less productive!

Nearing the End

eloquenceoftruth:



…The funny thing about moving to the next page, or to the next chapter, is that you have to leave the old one behind; I’ve grown quite attached to this current chapter, and I don’t know what’s going to happen with the people I love next semester. …


See, I’m a planner. I love planning things, and often make plans that don’t come to fruition just for the sake of making them. I love to be in control, and I’m always prepared to be in control. And the problem is, I don’t know what’s going to happen in 4 months when I get back to APU. No matter how hard I try to plan these things, I can’t do it, because I don’t know what the circumstances I will be in. …




I can relate to this so much. The school year is almost over and I still don’t know what I am doing or where I will be this summer. I love making plans and looking at the different trajectories of my life, but I have no idea what the future holds for me. I just come back to 1 Corinthians 2:9. I try to stay focused on the present and abide in Him now so he can use me later.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

I feel I can’t ask others to pray for me when they have much weightier things to be praying about.

Monday, April 25, 2011

Sunday, April 24, 2011

God's glory

God created the universe to bring glory to his name. So does he bring glory by the revelation of his power and wrath in judgment against the ungodly, or by having creatures who love him. Can it be both, but then does one come with lesser importance?

The man who comes to the right belief about God is relieved of ten thousand temporal problems.

Jason Jones

So applicable right now. Thanks Flower.

But, as it is written,
"What no eye has seen, nor ear heard,
nor the heart of man imagined,
what God has prepared for those who love him”


-1 Corinthians 2:9

God is the answer.

Not our version of God, but the sovereign God who is who he is. Let my mind be boggled and amazed and not put him in a box.

Friday, April 22, 2011

God gets the glory, and we get the joy. I wouldn’t want it to be any other way.

John Piper

We can’t break the hearts of stone, but the hearts won’t be broken unless we evangelize. When we go out, God goes with us. We are the hammer used to open the hearts.

I'm convinced. Calvinism is the only way.

Call me narrow minded, but I believe God is sovereign no matter what my assumptions may tell me otherwise.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Christian humility sees life and breath and everything as a gift of God and so is shot through with gratitude instead of grumbling. But not only is all a gift. Because of our sin, all the benefits of life and the hope of eternity are utterly undeserved gifts. The Christian knows that his life hangs on a scarlet cord of mercy and mercy alone. Therefore, the humble person is not greatly inclined to demand personal rights, because he knows if he were treated like that his life would be over. He is not presumptuous or insolent but unassuming and meek. The humble person has the feeling that his natural place is to serve rather than be served; he takes the lowest seat. There arises in his heart a great uneasiness when he is unduly honored or praised. And even when he has done well, the compliments he gets are a bit awkward for him, not because he artificially denies his competence, but because he feels so keenly that whatever he has accomplished is owing to grace, so that God should get the credit above all. The humble Christian does not crave the praise of men. He longs for God to be praised and thanked and for truth to be honored. And finally, a person who has been humbled and secured by the gospel will manifest a willingness to acknowledge his error and a readiness to be corrected when wrong. Humility does not try to save face. It is quick to admit its own finitude and imperfection and stubbornness.

John Piper - “It’s My Pleasure” sermon 1983

Coincidence from God

Decide to take a 5 minute bread to walk around the Student Center to just say hi to people, and end up talking to a friend for 90 minutes.


My life is not my own. I want to give every minute to God.

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

I am not going to peak

Because a peak means that I am no longer moving forward. And I won’t plateau either. It is just as bad as peaking. Anything buy moving forward is unacceptable. Even on my comfortable days I am going to seek the Lord with all my heart, search his word for THE truth.


Thank you God for opening my heart to your love 

Monday, April 18, 2011

I suck at recieving compliments

I feel bad for feeling good about myself because I know all goodness only comes from God, and then I beat myself up about it and might forget to muster a thank you.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Philippians 3:7-11

This passage got brought up in my life TWICE today. In Prison Letters, and just now in a completely separate situation. I don’t think this is coincidence. God, help me to consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I lose all things. I want it all to be garbage, that I may gain Christ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own, but that which is through faith in Christ.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Oh, idols.

the17club:



Check out this list of convicting idol-indicators.


Questions 6-8 really got to me.



oh boy. I’ve got some stuff to bring before God.

Monday, April 11, 2011

Truth Wins, not Rob Bell

Rob Bell just spoke at a local church, Wayzata Community. You know that when the ‘church’ says that they "Follow the path of Jesus Christ, while respecting other pathways to God”, that nothing good is going to come of it. I didn’t go and listen to him talk, but a friend did and it was terrible.


"No doubt, Rob Bell writes as a pastor who wants to care for people struggling with the doctrine of hell. I too write as a pastor. And as a pastor I know that Love Wins means God’s people lose. In the world of Love Wins, my congregation should not sing “In Christ Alone” because they cannot not believe, “There on the cross where Jesus died, the wrath of God was satisfied.” They would not belt out “Bearing shame and scoffing rude, in my place condemned he stood.” No place for “Stricken, Smitten, and Afflicted” with its confession, “the deepest stroke that pierced him was the stroke that Justice gave.” The jubilation of “No condemnation now I dread; Jesus, and all in him, is mine!” is muted in Love Wins. The bad news of our wrath-deserving wretchedness is so absent that the good news of God’s wrath-bearing Substitute cannot sing in our hearts. When God is shrunk down to fit our cultural constraints, the cross is diminished. And whenever the cross is diminished we pain the hearts of God’s people and rob them of their joy." -Kevin DeYoung


DeYoung does a complete and truthful review on Love Wins, and really you only need to read a small chunk of it to see how heretical Rob Bell is. Here is another useful resource. I encourage you not to buy the book and study God’s word in context.

His name is Esteban

I GOT A COMPASSION KID TODAY!!! He is from Nicaragua. I can’t wait to write to him in Spanish. I am so glad God has put me in a position to help others.

Saturday, April 9, 2011

An unreached people group: actors/actresses/celebrities

The new birth unites the want-to with the ought-to at the root. But they do not become one tree until heaven.

John Piper (Twitter)

Friday, April 8, 2011

Come and hear, all you who fear God; let me tell you what he has done for me!! (Psalm 66:16)

17 I cried out to him with my mouth; 
   his praise was on my tongue. 
18 If I had cherished sin in my heart, 
   the Lord would not have listened; 
19 but God has surely listened 
   and has heard my prayer. 
20 Praise be to God, 
   who has not rejected my prayer 
   or withheld his love from me!


God is so awesome! I was apprehensive for something to happen so that I would see God come through. AND HE DID!!


Mark 11


24 Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. 25 And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive them, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins.”

Thursday, March 31, 2011

Free Google Programs for Non-Profit Organizations

Link: Free Google Programs for Non-Profit Organizations

Boxelder trip

I went backstage to take a nap and 20 minutes after trying to doze off I opened my eyes and I hallucinated a guy standing above me who told me a proverb about laziness, something like “The ants work hard, and the lazy grasshoppers will die.” I thought God was telling me I should do my homework, but then I apparently knew that proverb so figured it was just my imagination. I fell asleep and woke up with a boxelder bug on my face! I left and returned 30 minutes later to go to work and yelled at Anna “No!” when she said hi to me, but have no recollection of it.


My conclusion: BOXELDER BUGS ARE EVIL!!! (and potentially hallucinogenic)

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Psalm 25 rocks my world. [slight change to modernize due to lack of direct enemies]

 1 In you, LORD my God, I put my trust.

 2 I trust in you; 
   do not let me be put to shame, 
   nor let my enemies [obstacles] triumph over me. 
3 No one who hopes in you 
   will ever be put to shame, 
but shame will come on those
   who are treacherous without cause.


 4 Show me your ways, LORD, 
   teach me your paths. 
5 Guide me in your truth and teach me, 
   for you are God my Savior, 
   and my hope is in you all day long. 
6 Remember, LORD, your great mercy and love, 
   for they are from of old. 
7 Do not remember the sins of my youth 
   and my rebellious ways; 
according to your love remember me, 
   for you, LORD, are good.


 8 Good and upright is the LORD; 
   therefore he instructs sinners in his ways. 
9 He guides the humble in what is right 
   and teaches them his way. 
10 All the ways of the LORD are loving and faithful 
   toward those who keep the demands of his covenant. 
11 For the sake of your name, LORD, 
   forgive my iniquity, though it is great.


 12 Who, then, are those who fear the LORD? 
   He will instruct them in the ways they should choose.
13 They will spend their days in prosperity, 
   and their descendants will inherit the land. 
14 The LORD confides in those who fear him; 
   he makes his covenant known to them. 
15 My eyes are ever on the LORD, 
   for only he will release my feet from the snare.


 16 Turn to me and be gracious to me, 
   for I am lonely and afflicted. 
17 Relieve the troubles of my heart 
   and free me from my anguish. 
18 Look on my affliction and my distress 
   and take away all my sins. 
19 See how numerous are my enemies [troubles]
   and how fiercely they hate [obstruct] me!


 20 Guard my life and rescue me; 
   do not let me be put to shame, 
   for I take refuge in you. 
21 May integrity and uprightness protect me, 
   because my hope, LORD, is in you.


Sunday, March 27, 2011

All the secrets of the world are contained in books. Read at your own risk.

Lemony Snicket. (via julie911)

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Just do it

When praying, pray on your knees in reverence to the Most High God who daily showers us with love. Also, whenever possible, pray aloud. The physical has an effect on the spiritual. - This is from Screwtape Letters, the message, not the words - But seriously, do it

Friday, March 25, 2011





ha Ha!

Summer

I want to do God’s will. That is first.


But between Little Eden and Camp Lebanon I began to lean towards Camp Lebanon. But a third option popped in my head as I was thinking back to Praise Chapel. I do have the option to go back to Phoenix. Go back and try with all my heart to show my friends the Jesus I love. And it would be nice to see my home church again, and work at Tonto Rim. Oh Lord, that sounds so wonderful right now…. but I really don’t want to work at some job for a few months… But maybe if I save up my money I can find a really part time job just to pay for gas… but what about transportation… and rent… arg $$! Lord place on my heart what you want me to do. Where can I be your servant the best this summer.

God is so good

He just is! It is inexplicable. Today in worship I just asked and asked for God to become my focus so that I would know his will and his heart. And while an incredible joy washed over me, so did I have complete heartbreak for those who aren’t able to partake in the joy I know as my savior. The thought that they will not dwell in the house of the Lord breaks my heart.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Again, why I love my professor

"Once again, it was my high joy to work together with you in the this class. I was not exaggerating in saying that you all were the finest Honors Intro class I’ve ever had. Classes like yours are why I’m a teacher. You all encouraged me very much. I believe the Church of Jesus Christ has many dear leaders in each of you. I pray He will bless and use you for His glory as you give yourself to Him for His purposes." -Dr


In reality, I feel he was the encouraging one. This was the class that I was most dreading and ended up being very rewarding.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Christians need to love more!!

Somebody who showed the love that we as Christians should have did a simple act of picking two people up to drive them to the library. She just happened to be driving off campus and asked the people she saw walking if they wanted a ride to wherever they were going. This is the same person who has been criticized (not to her face) in a very unloving manner. Sure, we aren’t all perfect and there is always something to complain about, but give them grace!! I know I must be given a ton, but I don’t deserve any of it. I am failure, yet people have grace.

I create destruction

Sometimes I just want to not be. My stupidity causes so much problems. Does the cloudy cold day add to this emotion? Would listening to depressing music fuel self loathing or self pity? Did I just use comedic TV to cheer myself up? Lord I need you todo el tiempo. Gracias para su gracia.

Secrets create destruction

I consider my self trustworthy, but I guess only if it is someone confiding in me.

Deception vs Joking

I might draw the line closer to the side of deception than most people. I spoiled a prank that occurred last week. I just can’t keep on the deception! I am all good for jokes and pranks, but I don’t see any delight in keeping it a secret. Then it is just deception. Sorry to those who I ruined it for, but let it be known, that if you are to involve me in a prank, it must be short and sweet.



I hope I made the okay choice… Lose/lose situation

Monday, March 21, 2011

James 5:16


"Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective."


Sunday, March 20, 2011

If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? For even sinners love those who love them. If you do good to those who do good to you, what credit is that to you? For even sinners do the same.

Jesus (Luke 6:32-33)

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Wedgewort, Scabgutt, Burnwretch, Raspwasp

Okay, which of these are good demon names? I need to create a demon name for making my own Screwtape letters, where C.S. Lewis has names like, Glubose, Screwtape, and Wormwood. Which is the best?

Tuesday, March 15, 2011





the17club:



A worthy adversary to March Madness.


We all know the Buckeyes will win, anyway.



Aside from the hair on top, that actually looks like my Dad

Friday, March 11, 2011

You know your class is going to be difficult when the prof puts Hebrews 12:11 in the syllabus

“For the moment all discipline seems painful rather than pleasant; later it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it.” - Hebrews 12:11

:)

It is so encouraging having a professor who responds to a little 20pt essay like this:


“Wow, David! This is a thorough and outstanding discussion of this topic. I especially liked the phrase “omnivorous listener”! The personal examples and solid biblical perspective makes this essay ring strong and true. Thank you very much! I’m encouraged for the future of the Church because of young men like you. Hold fast to your grounding in Jesus Christ!”


I am not doing this to show off, though I nearly posted the essay, because I kind of like it, but as a witness to the blessing I have of a great teacher. I mean, who says, “Thank you” in a response to an assignment!?!

I’ve noticed that everybody that is for abortion has already been born.

Ronald Reagan

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Read Crazy Love by Francis Chan

especially if you are like me, living a life without action, a life not dependent on God, a life not characterized by faith. Needless to say I want to stop living that way RIGHT now. God, I want to be more than a moral American. I want to be a follower of Christ in a radical sense, in the the way that you called.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Some of the wisest words I have heard recently

My Aunt suggested I should work at Camp Lebanon this summer, which would mean deciding between there and Little Eden, two great Christian camps. Two decisions means that I have to decide. It was already starting to worry me. Then she said that:« God rarely tells us where he wants us to be far ahead of time. What is important is that we give it to God and pray about it and put it in his will, then decide when you have to and there it is. In the end it isn’t as much about where you end up, but that you ended up there with God, seeking him throughout the whole thing. »


It is so congruous with all that is true. Thank you God for giving me such great family. Please help me to listen to you and seek you constantly.

Today is

Mardi Gra. It doesn’t deserve to be in the title of a post. What a terrible waste of everything. And then tomorrow begins Lent. Let this not be a time to take a fast from activities that seem to draw us away from God. I’m not trying to be clever or anything, but I think often we think, “Well maybe I spend too much time doing (insert thing),” and then take 40 days off of it, and then go right back at it like there was no difference. If there is anything in our lives that draws us away from God, then it should be dealt with immediately and without a limited period of time. Lent is the time to offer up things as sacrifices that are more in the neutral zone. Something earthy that doesn’t draw us away from God, but is a pleasure that when sacrificed, will give us even more time to draw near to God, or as my uncle suggested, dedicate time to a verse (or 2 or 3) to memorize and learn from. I feel that as soon as I think I get my life back on track, I stop pursuing God because I think everything is going well. I should always be looking for ways to increase my love for God, because I know it is lacking.

Sunday, March 6, 2011

It isn't a bit saddening?

We all have heard Matthew 19:23-24. Basically we have learned that rich people can get into Heaven, but isn’t going to be easy. As Americans, we often don’t consider ourselves rich, but you have probably bought a non-essential recently that is worth more than what other people earn in a week. There are plenty of comparisons and example to point it out, but the fact is, Americans are, in general, filthy rich. Isn’t it quite depressing knowing that although we may not be persecuted in our faith, and may have a large group of church goers, there may be very few people who actually take up God’s call and follow Jesus with a whole heart. I wonder how many people use Jesus as just a couch to lie on, or an occasional crutch, instead of our wheelchair/Segway.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Suffering

Philippians 1:29 For you have been given not only the privilege of trusting in Christ but also the privilege of suffering for him. 


Do we turn away this privilege? Is this something that is supposed to be present in our lives, or are only some Christians privileged (mainly those outside the US)? Are we doing something wrong?

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

It makes me sad/angry when we, who call ourselves Christians, do not find sin disgusting.

In this case, the sin is infidelity. Not in the utmost sexual manner, but that I am the only perturbed that the guy kissed a girl who he is not in a relationship with, and while knowing she was in a relationship with another guy!!!!





excuse the bright lighting, and my awkwardness as people were wondering why I was holding my hand up trying to block the light. Oh well, I’ll be awkward in the library. Oh, but the point of the photo was to point out what my hair did on its own. I woke up and boom! up in the air, like it is stylized. I tried to even out the one flat part on top, because no matter how much I push it down, it will need some water to flatten this out.

Contrary to what most people think, I don’t think kids go to college to get a degree. Sure, that’s a plus, and somehow society skewed it so that the degree is the end all be all of our generation. But college is about growing up, healing, learning how to do relationship, learning how to balance life, learning how to break out of our stupid bubbles. God brought me to APU for so much more than a degree. He brought me here to heal my wounds. He brought me here to cast my broken arms and legs. He brought me here to mold me into the man that can take that degree and use it in ways that this kid could never imagine. That is why I am in college.

Ryan: Discouraged


 It isn’t the main point of the post, and thus a little out of context, but I liked it.

Monday, February 28, 2011

Great verse combination for a sick friend

"Dear friend, I hope all is well with you and that you are as healthy in body as you are strong in spirit" (3 John 1:2), “‘For I will restore health to you,
and your wounds I will heal,’ declares the Lord” (Jeremiah 30:17a).



Unfortunately the 2nd one is a little out of context, as it is talking about Jerusalem, but I think the principal applies.

Saturday, February 26, 2011

Rant

Well I am at the library working on my exegetical paper and Mormons got briefly mentioned at the study table. This caused me to think back to that one verse which Mormon’s used to justify the 2nd group of Israelites who went to Central America. That verse is John 10:16 


16 I have other sheep that are not of this sheep pen. I must bring them also. They too will listen to my voice, and there shall be one flock and one shepherd. 


Those other sheep are supposed to reference those people, and they have several references to this verse by Joseph Smith where he states the people “understood [Jesus] not” when he said this. But if you stop taking verses out of context and look at what Jesus is saying, you see that he is talking to Pharisees and Jews. When you look at the figurative meaning of “sheep pen” and bringing them together as “one flock”, you have to think a little. Although not necessarily a complete rock solid evaluation, I would say that logically you could say that if those other sheep being not of that pen meant a separation of distance, then by bringing them together as one flock would be removing that physical separation. On the other hand, if that was a social and spiritual separation (as was the perceived separation between Jews and Gentiles), then that would be bridged. Well, that other flock in Central America died, so that never happened, while on the other hand, Jesus did bring together the Jews and Gentiles as God’s loving grace spread unto both! Isn’t it wonderful!


But it is so so terrible how misled the Mormon’s are! The devil is so freakin crafty! Why do we keep this truth from our misled friends!?!

Okay, so John Piper and Francis Chan are probably some of the most awesome people

Listen to their sermons, probably read their books, ie. Crazy Love. I know C.S. Lewis and other people are awesome too, but I’m counting just the live people who are within my limited perspective.


http://www.crazylovebook.com


http://www.cornerstonesimi.com/special/media_player.html


http://www.desiringgod.org/resource-library/


http://www.desiringgod.org/resource-library/conference-messages/why-we-all-need-the-gospel


This last link I believe I have already posted, but I just love it. It is a scripturally supported sermon, and it should be something that we could easily get from our own reading. It is so simple, yet essential, but still somehow missed by the Church, and by the church, I mean people in church, not the organization.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

A "lukewarm Christian" is an oxymoron.

If you disagree, listen to Francis Chan’s sermon first, then tell me why you disagree. Do you (dis)agree?

Francis Chan's word from God

Link: Francis Chan's word from God

Please watch this. Or at least read the transcription of the message below. You won’t get all the emotion and nuances of inflection, but it is better than nothing.

I dislike all this gossip

Things are going well

that is allowed right? Things are just falling into place. When God is on top, things just line up. When you look at your feet, your path will bend and curve, but if you keep your eyes up focused on God, your path will be straight.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011





okay… I like it a little better when I don’t take a shower right before going to bed.


…but I prefer taking showers before bed…

Tuesday, February 22, 2011





Still look good? hehe





So my good friends gave me a haircut. As awesome as it is, I am just too lazy to stylize this into something respectable. It is getting cut Thursday.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Are you sick of highly paid teachers?


     Teachers’ hefty salaries are driving up taxes, and they only work 9 or10 months a year! It’s time we put things in perspective and pay them for what they do - babysit!


We can get that for less than minimum wage.


     That’s right. Let’s give them $3.00 an hour and only the hours they worked; not any of that silly planning time, or any time they spend before or after school. That would be $19.50 a day (7:45 to 3:00 PM with 45 min. off for lunch and plan— that equals 6 1/2 hours).


      Each parent should pay $19.50 a day for these teachers to baby-sit their children. Now how many students do they teach in a day…maybe 30? So that’s $19.50 x 30 = $585.00 a day.


However, remember they only work 180 days a year!!! I am not going to pay them for any vacations.


LET’S SEE….


That’s $585 X 180= $105,300 per year. (Hold on! My calculator needs new batteries).


      What about those special education teachers and the ones with Master’s degrees? Well, we could pay them minimum wage ($7.75), and just to be fair, round it off to $8.00 an hour. That would be $8 X 6 1/2 hours X 30 children X 180 days = $280,800 per year.


Wait a minute — there’s something wrong here! There sure is!


The average teacher’s salary (nation wide) is $50,000. $50,000/180 days = $277.77/per day/30 students=$9.25/6.5 hours = $1.42 per hour per student—a very inexpensive baby-sitter and they even EDUCATE your kids!) WHAT A DEAL!!!!


[disclaimer: not originally mine]

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Prayer

I think I used to never fully understand how Jesus was just praying all night long in the garden. I guess I just attributed it to the awesome nature  of Jesus, but as my prayer list grows, I can easily see how Jesus could be there praying not only about the situation that he was in, but praying for all his friends and followers and just about everything!

Friday, February 18, 2011

an undedicated mind

I am like a recovering alcoholic, but my addiction is videogames. I played maybe 1.5 hours yesterday. Didn’t seem like that long, but I’m sure it must have been. The reason I am classifying it as an addiction is that… pause (I went to sleep a little early last night but I was dead tired all day regardless and so…) whenever I started to go out of consciousness, which took no more than 8 seconds with my eye lids closed, I began to dream. Each of these rapidly onset dreams were me in the Call of Duty Black Ops game. It was terrible. It happened in nearly every class and even during chapel. I thought it representative of how my mind isn’t actually dedicated like I want it to be.


One of the songs in praise chapel contained these lyrics:


The more i seek you, the more i find you. The more i find you, the more I love you.


This is so true!! I show my love by seeking him more, because when I seek, I will find. Why does my will fight this so much!?

9:30 is considered an extremely early bedtime

but really it shouldn’t be. I should sleep more.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

I have a problem. It's called not sleeping.

Although I don’t take away my earnest desire to stay awake in class, I think overall this semester I have been staying up too late. I don’t feel tired by then, a second wind comes in. Unfortunately my tiredness hits me in the evening. So I think I have just accumulated a lot of sleep debt and need to start being in bed by 10 and 11, which means I need to start getting homework done earlier, and being more responsible. I need to start praying more. I need to shape up and be proud of how I used my day. =/

btw,

those are all the random thoughts that were flying through my head. I am pretty much going to disregard everything, continue to be jovial with him, get even more sleep, twiddle my thumbs in class, and do all the available extra credit, and study a whole bunch for the next test, and kick butt on the next assignments. So yeah… why am I explaining myself… oh well, my typing down what I am going to do (what I need to do) will make it more likely that I do it.

I may have talked before about how I have realized that my view of student-professor relationships was a little skewed, as I nearly saw them as an enemy (slight exaggeration), but my perceptions of Professor’s are breaking down more and more. What professor is comedic in an email?! What am I supposed to make of that? “No need to be incredibly sorry; just “sorry” is enough  :-)  Let the apology fit the “crime.” [in reference to my late work] Thanks for turning in the work. See you later today.  I trust you’re doing well.  It’s a joy to have you front and center in the class.” This is from the class that I seem to always fall asleep in. I don’t think he always notices, but is he being sarcastic with me sitting in the front? idk… And then he just came up to me in the library to say hello or something, and I didn’t no what to talk about so I brought up my poor test grade and how I needed an A, and how I was sorry for falling asleep even though I was trying really hard. He said that he nearly woke me up on Monday, but I looked like I was having a good sleep; that was the day where I was pretty much out the entire period. I don’t even want to calculate whether it is possible for me to get an A anymore.

I have a problem. It's called sleeping.

No matter how hard I try, I always fall asleep after lunch. Last semester it wasn’t really a problem because I had an hour before my class, now I eat and go to class. And I made it so close today, but in the last 10 minutes I dozed off only to be awoken by my peer. I folded my arms so that I wouldn’t start reclining on them, but I just nodded off. Arg! The only reason I was able to delay it so long was by working on my computer. I even went to bed before midnight last night, and took 2 naps yesterday, and drank a caffeinated soda (Barqs) at lunch. The only thing left to do is start jabbing knives into my leg so the adrenaline and pain kick in. Are there anti-sleeping pills?

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Have learned a little about Catholics recently...

It seems so obvious to me that there are so many wrong things in Catholicism. The necessity of an intermediary, seriously? The one vague idea behind this topples under the weight of everything else in the Bible. And if the “facts” about Mary are debunked, then the Pope loses his ability to be infallible while on the throne. I mean this has been used only a few times to justify doctrine, but it does get make the Catholic church loses its credibility. And then purgatory loses its credibility and then Catholics just shape up and turn towards Jesus instead of ‘the church’ and then a lot more people can truly follow Jesus. Then these people who vainly put their prayers to Mary and Saints, are they actually following Christ? Well, the same can be said about the millions of “christians” who put God solely as the creator of the universe.

My cousins are fantastic

They drove a 17 or 18 hour round trip to come visit me for approximately 1.5 days. It went by super fast and I wish I could have just lounged around more with them and talked and talked. Seriously, I don’t think anybody has cousins more awesome than me (and they are second cousins at that! [like that even matters]). I love them so much. They even brought me Canadian White Cream Honey, the best stuff ever. 

When you create a prayer list, it grows really fast

I keep adding stuff to my prayer list, but I haven’t actually sat down and prayed dedicatedly recently. Do I eventually stop praying for people? Can a prayer list get too large? I will just say no, that sounds silly. I feel that would be trying to limit the power of God.

Finances.

This weeks theme in chapel is finances. Lady was talking about all the great things with money and how credit score isn’t really as important as saving money, but it brought up the issue that I have been thinking about. Well it didn’t address it, just made me think about it. I have a job here at school and so I actually have money in my bank account for the first time. I have been saving pretty well (though I could cut down on a little spending, especially in the food department), and feel that the money is just sitting there doing nothing. On the one side I know that eventually I’ll need to buy a car I suppose… and there could be emergencies… but I feel I could be helping somebody, putting it to a good cause. I don’t want to live my life continually building financially security always saying that it could be needed later. As an engineering student I kind of expect that a fair amount of money will fall into my lap (well I know I’ll work for it…) and I want to continue to live frugally, but will I just save and save and never give? I know that 10% is good, but I feel once I have more I should be able to handle more than that (but once I have kids, who knows how much they’ll cost).

Friday, February 11, 2011

Let it be Yours

so busy. I have had such little time. And then when I do… I zone away watching TV. I have to wake up in less than 7 hours. Pray that the weather is good so my cousins can come down from Canada, otherwise I don’t know when I will be able to see them. I really wanted to think and blog about something. My only thoughts seem to come during Praise chapel. Why is that. Am I not taking anytime to sit down and pray… not really. And now I am going to bed… arg… Lord, take my life and let it be all for you and for your glory; take my life and let it be yours.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Paz

Sitting here in a room down the hall from mine. Just finished some homework due Wednesday while Matt and Mafu are taking naps on the couch/futon .

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Nevertheless, among churchmen, beyond their rites and ceremonies, luxury is a crime. It seems to disclose habits which are not truly charitable. A wealthy priest is a contradiction. He ought to keep himself near the poor. But, who can be in contact continually, by night as well as day, with all distresses, all misfortunes, all privations, without taking upon himself a little of that holy poverty, like the dust of a journey? Can you imagine a man near a fire who does not feel warm? Can you imagine a labourer working constantly at a furnace, who has not a hair burned, nor a nail blackened, nor a drop of sweat, nor a speck of ashes on his face? The first proof of charity in a priest, and especially a bishop, is poverty.

Victor Hugo (Les Miserables)
Research papers should NOT include personal opinion but simply report findings.

instructions for my music paper that make the project really boring.

Prayer as a Way of Walking in Love: A Personal Journey

Link: Prayer as a Way of Walking in Love: A Personal Journey

Francis Chan at 2011 Pastor’s Conference. 25 minutes through it so far. It is so awesome.