I am like a recovering alcoholic, but my addiction is videogames. I played maybe 1.5 hours yesterday. Didn’t seem like that long, but I’m sure it must have been. The reason I am classifying it as an addiction is that… pause (I went to sleep a little early last night but I was dead tired all day regardless and so…) whenever I started to go out of consciousness, which took no more than 8 seconds with my eye lids closed, I began to dream. Each of these rapidly onset dreams were me in the Call of Duty Black Ops game. It was terrible. It happened in nearly every class and even during chapel. I thought it representative of how my mind isn’t actually dedicated like I want it to be.
One of the songs in praise chapel contained these lyrics:
The more i seek you, the more i find you. The more i find you, the more I love you.
This is so true!! I show my love by seeking him more, because when I seek, I will find. Why does my will fight this so much!?
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