Well aren't I posting a lot out of the blue.

Anyways, I don’t know which way I should decide on friend requests on FB. It may sound like a silly thing to worry about, but there are a couple of options and probably some I haven’t considered.

• Friend only those people who I plan on talking to and/or keeping in contact with. (including distant family I see every 3 or 4 years)


• Friending anybody I barely even know (will not pick this option)


• Friending those who I am on good terms with and have had a conversation with and it wouldn’t be bizarre to talk to them again, or too weird to post something on there wall. Even if some of their status updates would be completely out of my interest cause I haven’t seen them in a year or so.

What should I do?

Today, I drove 2-3 hours straight.

and I wasn’t even pushing it! Could have gone on for quite a bit. This was quite a bit improvement from the previous day which was but an hour and a half-ish.

Obviously I am not good at driving for long periods of time…

Thank goodness for naps and a good sleep. I love this road trip. My grandparents are awesome, and I get an awesome lush backseat for naps when I don’t drive. Plus I get to control the music when I want. Lots of Adventures of Odyssey, and then between piano, Newsboys, Relient K, Regina Spektor, and other randomness or worship stuff. Tomorrow I arrive in MN and get to see my fam!

Long distance relationships?

Do they work? I have been thinking about this. I have a dear friend who I only have seen once in the past year (in person). We had a good, brief, lunch. But staying in contact is difficult over distance. oh, BTW, I am talking about simple friendships. Though simple may not be an apt word. I have other great friends that I am leaving behind in Phoenix/Tuscon. Will these friendships crumble into the past? I have always been very nostalgic and is my desire to hold on to people as trivial as holding on to old objects of the past? Sounds harsh, but isn’t there a limit to how many people you can have a real relationship with? Sounds un-Christian too. I can care about everybody, and love them too, but having a relationship with them is impractical…

No se. Apart from these relationships, there is a more important relationship I need to be working on right now. 

Another +/- attribute

I can fall asleep anywhere in pretty much any situation if I am tired. Makes road trips pass by very fast. But this is very bad when I am operating a vehicle. Driving doesn’t keep me awake. Music doesn’t remedy the situation for long either. I have once actually started into a day dream while driving. Albeit it was for less than 6 seconds, but that can be extremely dangerous. Often when I am tired and am trying to stay awake, my eyes will go out of focus. This would sometimes occur in church when it was nearly impossible to look at the preacher for longer than a second without him duplicating or fuzzing up. The best thing I can do to counteract that is to change my focus between background and foreground constantly. Well this eye problem has also occurred while driving, though not as bad (probably due to the moving road and stuff, so I can easily keep my eyes moving around and active). 

Luckily for me, this road trip with my grandparents is going well and I don’t have to drive that much. They are both experience drivers. I will not have a car in college, so I will just have to worry about falling asleep in the library or something.

P.S. This is really only a problem when I am by myself, cause talking (a conversation) is enough stimuli to keep me awake and alert.

My disconcerting relationship with excitement/anticipation

I don’t really know if it is really disconcerting, but I can get easily excited for something new and cool, and in relation to future events, that is when I’ll plan it all out like I did with my freshman college classes, but after that, it is simply an acceptance of future events. People ask me if I’m excited for college, and I guess the answer is yes. I am looking forward to this new experience, but I don’t feel excitement. If I were to talk about it now, it is more matter-of-fact. 

I think this is also related to my ability to not stress. Even if something bad is coming, or a deadline or whatever, I simply accept it and don’t freak out. This can actually be bad in relation to school work. Maybe good in that I keep a level head, but I wouldn’t find the urgency or need to accomplish my work. I would think, “I have put it off. I have this much time left. I will work for so so minutes and go to sleep cause I am tired. I will receive lower grade in morning.” Where is the urgency, the need to do what is better?

Anyways, this attribute has its positive and negative effects, but I seem to only be feeling the negative ones… A level head is over rated.

And BTW, stupid high school relationships!

Not only do I hear of stupid hs drama in the last 2 weeks of school, but now that school is over, I thought, yes! I am done with silly stuff. But no, a good friend of mine who is a year behind got himself into a relationship that finally (and painfully) ended after a month. Guilt caused the relationship to start, and guilt kept it going. And guilt that was stupid and shouldn’t have been created in his mind. Anyways had quite hours with him and another buddy helping him get to the point of breaking up, and then another couple of hours dealing with her afterwards. Not directly, but through him away (in Skype). Oh the silly terrors of stupid relationships! Just stay friends and people don’t get hurt! Arg.

Well I did graduate.

So life has been busy, mostly with seeing people before I leave. I leave at the end of this month. There is at least 1 reader who hopefully reads this that I would like to see before I leave. If you have spare scholarship $, I am here for yall.

brookandlyn:

iescapism:

“Professor Philip Zimbardo conveys how our individual perspectives of time affect our work, health and well-being. Time influences who we are as a person, how we view relationships and how we act in the world.”

We watched this lecture in AP Psych! Good memories. Zimbardo is awesome. And this is so true.