Now that I have decided upon Northwestern, I need to worry, no, not worry, I just need to be on top of scholarships. Lots of them. Lots and lots and lots. Somewhere around the 20K area…
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Friday, March 12, 2010
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
“Hey guys, please read 379 pages in a week while you try to get everything else done too, ok?”
Yeah, I got to page 40. Thank goodness for Sparknotes.
I love that book. I would say Sparknotes ruined it. You should at least go back and read it sometime. Seriously, I love that book.
Page 1 through 40 was definitely good! I wish I could have read the whole thing. At least it didn’t really have a big twist or anything…pretty straightforward so it will still be enjoyable to read even though I know what happens. I own it now so I’m sure I’ll get around to it eventually.
Oh good, good. Though knowing what happens may ruin the sentimentality a little. Maybe if you wait long enough to forget who is who then it will help. I just got it recently, though it is on loan to a friend. Though the only time I read it was in 5th or 6th grade. My tear ducts were left empty.
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Deadline
Unless something changes, I think I shall pick Northwestern by Friday and officially turn down Bluffton. Feel free to contact me about this decision.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Purpose
Earlier today I was feeling extremely depressed. It didn’t last long. Maybe it was because I just finished reading Watchmen, which isn’t the traditional happy ending story. Maybe it is because I just got back from California and now have to cannonball back into reality, which includes tons of homework and scholarship stuff (1 I just found out I didn’t win, and another 1 I could have one, but missed the deadline).
All this homework means tons of time spent doing the homework. Luckily Sparknotes helps with part of it, but I really prefer actually reading the book. Anyways, in Sunday School we touched upon the all powerful, yet seemingly elusive, spiritual gifts. Which made me think about how I am put here to help people, to love people. But all this homework seems to get in the way! Yarg! How can I go out and help people when I have so many obligations. I feel akin to Paul’s message about marriage. As I understand it, he liked Christians being single so that they aren’t tied down and hindered in this manner, but are open and ready for change, able to give themselves completely to others without responsibilities restricting their movements. I feel all these advanced classes are just burdens. My friend Cole must have been something similar to this, because his senior year he dropped a few of his AP classes because he plans on going into pastoral work or something, so excessive math is exactly that, excessive. But I have such a passion for learning, well… I used to at least. I want to be there for people.
A slightly less holistic thought was due to my recent failures in Academic Decathlon and the STN competition. My attention in life is so diverted. I am involved in so many things that I feel I am limiting myself to substandard levels of excellence. I was unable to prepare enough for Aca Dec, and I haven’t been able to dedicate myself to TV Productions enough to actually be able to make a film (same for the other top students in TV Pro). I partially feel this is the PVHS curse. There are so many electives and clubs and options that attract you, but you are then unable to excel in any of your activities. It is quite dreadful, especially when these things involve competition. Is this why I was unable to beat out 2 other guys for the Outstanding Young Man for City Council District 3?? Or was it just because I forgot to mention my attendance at Boy’s State.
I feel dead set on Northwestern. I emailed them telling them of the large difference between the scholarships that I am receiving from Bluffton and them, and they simply told me about the regular things that I need to make sure to do. They reminded me to look for outside scholarships. I wasn’t getting some special award or treatment; I was just there. And I liked it. Maybe this is my chance to finally strive for something. A challenge to make me work hard and a chance to start over in a place that I am not labeled as “the kid who just gets As”. I feel that may be my destiny at Bluffton. On the flop-side, I feel like I am almost welcoming underachievement…
Why must my sleep be so insatiable when I have so much homework to do?
Had a great time in California. Student Television Network had their national annual video competition. We left Tuesday morning and got back Saturday night. Had to drive to the Disneyland Convention Center. We stayed at the Disneyland hotel and went to the parks part of the time. The main part, the “Sweet 16”, was going really well until at about hour 11 of the 16, Cody got really upset cause we hadn’t filmed his small part yet after his insistent requests. He ran off and we had to replace him with Cole, but the process of looking for him, and then preparing Cole, wasted about an hour. This hour was later needed in the final edits of the film, but it wasn’t there, so we were not able to level the audio or add ANY music. Ouch. We had no chance of getting into the top 4 now, and didn’t. Might find out later how close we had gotten.
And we were pretty much the poorest school there. EVERYBODY had HD cameras and their film quality was amazing!
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