Finally!

Math became fun again. Calculus was being such a bore, but now I remembered what made it more interesting. I mean, sure there are certain parts of it that can be fun, but what I really enjoy is helping others/working with others. At one point in senior year (well actually for most of it), my only motivation for doing homework would be so that I could be knowledgeable enough to help my peers. It gives math a purpose. I am so glad I am not majoring just in Mathematics. Engineering is giving math a purpose. Education would have also been a suitable direction, but Bluffton didn’t offer that either. Thank you God.

Silly Psychoanalysis. (I was trying to make analyzation a word and even added it to my computers dictionary thinking I was correct, forgetting the word analysis.) Oy! maybe I should just act how I do and stop thinking of what others observe…

Though, that seems a little naive. That might be an easy way to get into sticky situations. In a Bible study down in Sierra vista, the topic was about being beyond reproach. For such considerations, it was generally agreed that a person in a relationship shouldn’t go out to eat or whatever with a person of the opposite gender, because if someone were to see them, it might appear as if that person was cheating. A Christian should attempt to not put people in those situations so they would never even be questioned about it, and thus: being beyond reproach. I seemed to think this was a bit excessive, at least for pre-marriage. If I have a good female friend, must I always make sure my special other is along for the ride? It seems a bit cumbersome and odd to me. 

Now I have really gone down a rabbit’s path (I am not completely sure if that is the phrase). I need to get back to work. Or at least check on my bread. Or start scheduling some Skype conversations.

All end on this note, male or female, I would love to be your friend.

I love hearing the bread maker kneading. So wonderful.

Voice

Reading Mack’s final paragraph just reminded me of how I always got marked down in the AIMS writing section due to my lack of Voice. Maybe I just don’t have it, or my voice is very academic, but for whatever reason, I don’t, or at least didn’t, have good Voice in my papers.

Easily influenced.

Somebody from outside MN asked me why I had a MN accent since I am from AZ. I have started to notice it even about a month ago. I have been in MN for nearly 2 months now and it comes out sometimes, depending on how I feel, or who I am around, idk. For whatever reason it comes and goes in different levels. Though when I typed “goes” it came out very heavily Minnesotan in my head, so that may be representative of how much it has affected me.

This may show how easily influenced I am. Maybe other people are like this too, maybe not. But I think it can illustrate the importance of the choice of where I put myself, or what I do with my time in general.

With this in mind, I am glad I am at Northwestern.

Thanks God.

The Christian call to take risks, witness and sacrifice for others is muted, she says.

http://www.cnn.com/2010/LIVING/08/27/almost.christian/index.html?hpt=T2

Really one of the saddest, but truest, articles.

Am I already changing?

why haven’t I been photo crazy with everything like I expected myself to be? I haven’t even changed my profile pic yet to something of me at Northwestern…

I feel like there must be some psychoanalytic value in this phenomenon….

P.S. NW rolled over is MN, and Northwestern is in Minnesota!!! I realized this when I saw a ball with MN/NW on it.