I want to live a life to praise God.

like my Oma and Opa.

On my way back to the great white midwest

Loving mother sending me off - check

Laptop - check

Puffy cheeks - check

Breakable honey jar in checked luggage - check

Annoyance with Justin Bieber’s Baby, Baby song on the news - check (but at least he is giving to charity, that makes me like him a bit more.) [but the Starcraft parody is great =) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fzMhh8zhTiY] 

Ride back to my sisters by a good friend - check

Winter break regrets - not yet. I will probably get back and remember a bunch of work that I had wanted to do.

Me for the last 4 hours, but with occasional jellos, pudding, and apple sauce. Thanks mum!

haha, funny (irony? I can't think on an empty stomach)

I just noticed I asked for wisdom but am getting my wisdom teeth out. hehehe

Wisdom teeth out in an hour.

Leading a bible study in 24 hours hours. Lord give me the wisdom and capacity.

Affirmation

Why is that I don’t find my complete satisfaction from knowing that God loves me? Knowing that no matter what, he is going to be there for me? Why must I be insecure and desire to be affirmed. 

Crap, I just refreshed this page and lost everything. I don’t remember exactly what all I said. So here is the abbreviated version.

I desire verbal affirmation cause I lack assurance in my social nature. I don’t want sympathy from readers (though I could take these feelings I have to apply to interactions with others to be more positive with others), but would prefer prayers that I grow with God in his ultimate security. Because he is the only duct tape that can fix this cracked pot.

January 1, 2011

Link: January 1, 2011

greaterthings:

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Jesus,

Who am I to be able to call you by name? Who am I to be able to experience just the sliver of glory that you have shown me? Lord, teach me how to follow you. Where you go I’ll go. Where you stay, I’ll stay. When you move, I’ll move. I will follow Abba. Who you love I’ll love. How you serve, I will serve. Jesus teach me how to take these empty words and make them whole. Teach me how to let go and take hold. Teach me how to continue to move forward, even as I am trembling with the fear that the next step hold. Use me this year Jesus. Mold and shape me this year Abba. Let me become all that you wish for me to become. Don’t let me hold me back. I love you Jesus. 

Lord,    ^.  

Amen.