It is so hard to intentionally change

This is War.

And let us not forget.

Right next door to my grandparents, a professor was murdered in a home invasion.

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A delightfully miserable day

It truly was miserable. I did not like yesterday. It wasn’t some difficult thing that I had to face, but I simply felt awful. And it was only because I had watched a fair amount of TV shows. Like maybe 2 or 3 hours of TV, some on Hulu, some on Netflix. It just wasn’t satisfying in the least, and it did not make me feel well. I simply did it out of habit. Due to this, I will be taking Community off of my Hulu subscriptions, not because the show has gotten any worse, but, in a way, my tastes have changed. I think this is partially due to the over consumption of TV which led to wasted time, and secondly, wasting time is becoming less palatable to my soul. I really want to use my time to glorify God, so my boredom was not satisfied by watching TV. It felt sickening, and so I felt miserable, all because I wasted time watching worthless TV for a couple of hours. And so, I delight in that my desires are being reshaped. That what once might have been a battle to not waste my time, is now simply a battle against habit (which is actually a very strong pull) and not so much against desire. I will go “to God my exceeding joy.” Disclaimer: I am far from using my time well, but this is just a small step for which I praise the Lord.