I lack stress. This is typically thought of as a good thing in this stress crazed culture, but stress is also necessary to perform well. In XC, in school, everything. How can I cause my self to get more stressed?
This is the song that I would like to change up a bit. It could so just be a praise/worship song or change it another way and it could be applicable to non-married couples (under the assumption that others are honoring a commitment of purity). I just really love the “Did you know, that I love?” I just love love =)
A blue-black shade of love, sent from above.
My hands are tied, two worlds alone, and this I know.
Your breaths like wine, and just like clouds, my skin crawls.
It’s so divine, the sky it glows with fields of light.
Did you know, that I love you?
Come andlay with(dwell in, live in, consume) me, I love you.
And on this day, I will love you.
You make me feel alive, and I’ll love you,
until the end of time.
My hands shake clasped with fear, as you come near.
To say goodnight, just like a dove, a peaceful sign.
To help us by, as you come in, let this begin.
Stars fall like dust,our lips will touch, we speak to much.(didn’t think out this one yet)
Did you know, that I love you?
Come and lay with me, I love you.
And on this day, I will love you.
You make me feel alive, and I’ll love you,
until the end of time.
Did you know, that I love you?
Come andlay with(dwell in, live in, consume), I love you.
And on this day, I will love you.
You make me feel alive, and I’ll love you,
until the end of time.I’ve got a lot to say, if you will let me.It’s always hard, when you’re around me.But here right now, there’s interest in your eyes.So hear me out, and hear this the first time.(not altogether bad, but could be tweaked)
That I love you, come andlay with(dwell in, live in, consume) me.
That I love you, and on this day.
That I love you, you make me feel alive.
That I love you, till the end of time.
My Great Uncle Abe has been diagnosed with Leukemia. Doctors have given little time. I know God is in control. We do not know His plans for our lives. He knows our first and last breath. I pray for peace and comfort and our Lord’s love to shower down.
My Oma is having health problems currently, including kidney failure. She is nearly 100 years old and I pray for God’s will and for comfort. Comfort for her so that she may be at peace without pain, and comfort for our family, as we prepare for the possible sending away of our loved Lena Braun to Jesus. She is such an incredible person. I really want to drive 2 days to go see her in Canada right now and give her a big hug and just listen to her and be with her. But I can’t. I haven’t seen her in years, but I am happy that I know Jesus is with her for me. She too is comforted by the Holy Spirit. Oma, I love you so much.
I learned this information earlier this week over the phone, and just took it. No emotion. I often just process things as matter-a-fact. As I finished typing the above paragraph, I just broke out into tears. I moaned and cried, sending my prayers up. It really surprised me. There was no one around, and then I just longed for someone to hug, I longed for my sister, for all my family back in AZ. It was a good cry.
I really don’t know the last time I cried… Take me God. Melt me, mold me, form me, fill me.
I really love worship songs! Really really do. And we have a Praise Chapel every Friday, but this one we didn’t due to other stuff. So bummer, and now I am not going to church tomorrow. Well since I know I don’t need a whole band and crowd to praise my Savior, I started looking up songs on Youtube and singing along. And then I remembered I have a Newsboys worship album, so I popped that up in Winamp while looking up lyrics online (1st website got blocked by school filter. Those lyric websites are so tricky!). That was going fine, but I started getting distracted by the looking up of lyrics and wasn’t focusing God with my time, so I knew that Winamp is opensource meaning people can make plugins/addons, so I looked up Winamp lyrics and within 30 seconds had a plugin that not only provided me a box to put lyrics with songs so I didn’t have to look them up every time, but it automatically filled in the lyrics from an online database! Amazing! I can edit them need be, but it works great! I set the lyrics thing to full screen and it changes with each song, so now my praise chapel is in session. I love singing to the Lord. I just need some more praise and worship albums now!
I am so incredibly busy. The amount of commitments I have may not be something (pause, need to do something that should have been done way earlier as it is a higher priority.) that is too much for other people, but I seem to need so much sleep. So I have had little to no time for homework, let alone much else. XC is a high taker of time, and then working is another 8 hours a week. I got 30% (give or take) of my Spanish homework done last week. That is a TERRIBLE start for this semester! I am not going to church tomorrow in hopes I can get all my homework done tomorrow. Lord knows how easily distracted I get (I mean that literally, He really does). So keep me in your prayers. I need to make a commitment to keep my priorities straight. I need someone to help keep me accountable! Jesus, you are there, why must I need others for accountability when I know you are constantly there, watching and hoping I do the right thing? Well for starts I am making a commitment to not go on FB this week. I didn’t go on Hulu last week, but I did for over an hour today, which maybe was too much. So we’ll keep with that too. No Hulu. No FB. No TV/movies (unless it is with other people Friday night/the weekend). I just boought To Save A Life. I love that movie. Did I blog about it when I first saw it? idk, I’ll probably watch it sometime and blog about it.
Sorry, this completely lacks organization. It has been awhile since I have been able to think at all. This really is the only way I can get my thoughts out. Writing works too, it is just a lot slower.
Due to this entire lack of time and going to bed between 9 and 11 every night, I really haven’t bonded with my roommates. I feel bad, they sometimes invite me somewhere, but I either turn them down or am just never around due to classes and XC. What little HW I do during the week, I do it in Riley to get away from distractions.
Little secret here, but I still haven’t paid for college. I am here as a student pretty much asking to get reprimanded. I NEED to send in my loan application! oi!
I need to get back to making daily task lists with everything that needs to be done, and things that I want to get done. An easy way to keep myself on track. Thanks Aunt Becky.
It is great knowing that when my strength and energy are at their limits, I have God to lean on. The Holy Spirit is there inside me, a flowing river, a rushing wind, an infinite amount of power waiting to explode is resting in me!! Thank you Jesus.
Likes to throw me into little panics where I turn to him. I lost my wallet, but my captain had it the whole time. Oy veh. God’s little reminder of what is important.
I really liked this analogy. It compared humans to trains. What some people call freedom to do what they want, just leads to destruction, going off the rails and into a terrible wreckage. We were built to be on tracks, so following Jesus is when we are truly free, free from destruction, free to go really really fast.
Must do this today to see it. It’ll even work if you jiggle the window!!
God set things in motion. I often thought that it would have been an interesting thing to have skipped a grade when I was younger. And there was also the possibility of graduating early. But if either of those things happened, I don’t think I would have been ready to come to college. I am not the same as I was 1 year ago. There are some things I could not have appreciated, and other things I could not have handled. Thank you Lord for watching over me this whole time. May I learn to lean on you all the time.
I’ve never been in a serious relationship. Not with anyone, not with God. As I start to learn more about You Lord, I realize how much more You should be in my life. I want to grow, I want to learn, I want You to be my all. I just don’t know how to do this. I have never done it before. Lord, put all my heart in my search for You. Help me put complete faith in You alone. Bring me to Your presence so I may bathe in Your glory Lord. I just want more of You.
